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I know the crew has been talking about this lately, and I have to be mindful of their feelings. Some people are already discussing returning to port.

I think I would consider this proposal if the situation continues to worsen, but not now.

Of the 97 projects we're responsible for, 52 are currently underway, with only 26 completed. Many projects haven't even begun. Frankly, turning back now would add another unsuccessful flight to everyone's resume…

However, if this trend continues, and safety is always the top priority, then this is the only option.

March 2, 3th year of the Seiwa era

Mr. Thomson also developed symptoms, and today he told me that a distant but kind voice was calling to him in his ear.

I'm sorry, but I have no choice but to isolate him.

Chapter 556 No Vivian!

March 3, 3th year of the Seiwa era

Today, White and Yamajiro's delusions are worsening; they've begun to believe they are someone else, that non-existent being...

At the same time, they began to exhibit symptoms of mania, attempting to attack the crew members who came to bring them food... As a result, sedatives had to be used on board.

Fortunately, no new patients have been admitted today, and we hope that the SI-A1 level emergency plan will be effective.

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Vivian came to see me again today. Maybe it's because I haven't been with a woman in so long, but I feel like I can't control my desires...

She's so attractive, I know it's wrong, but I really can't control myself...

I must avoid being alone with her! This absolutely cannot continue!

I am a soldier! And a father!

March 6, 3th year of the Seiwa era

SI-A1 failed to stop the situation from deteriorating, and 16 crew members have developed problems, including my first officer, Lieutenant Commander Clement. At least I think the possibility of microbial infection can be ruled out.

Perhaps, as some have speculated, there really is some kind of background radiation in subspace.

For everyone's safety, I announced the decision to return to base at today's meeting, and it seems that everyone supports this decision.

Fortunately, our navigator has not had any problems...

I think, no matter what, I must get them back safely.

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March 7, 3th year of the Seiwa era

I was shocked to discover that Vivian was having an affair with the sailor Andrei. I never knew she would be interested in a man in his fifties…

I don't know how to describe my feelings right now. Maybe this is a good thing, as it helps me to view this relationship in the right way.

Knowing when to stop leads to stability; stability leads to tranquility...

Ge Huaiyuan, you should know where the boundaries are in this matter. Don't cross them! Don't cross them!

March 10, 3th year of the Seiwa era

The number of sick crew members has risen sharply in the past few days, reaching 26. The isolation measures can no longer be maintained, and we must allow crew members with mild symptoms to continue working, otherwise we will not be able to start our experimental ship.

Protective suits have been proven ineffective, and the disease seems to be spreading in some way we cannot understand, and we still haven't found the cause.

White and Yamajiro have fallen into a state of self-consciousness confusion; in other words, they have truly gone mad!

They became extremely aggressive, and today I had to order the use of forceful restraints and drug control on them.

May the heavens grant them the blessing that they will be able to hold out until their return journey.

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I dreamt of Vivian last night, and this morning I threw away my sheets and underwear. It's a terrible thing; I don't know why I acted so impulsively…

I knew perfectly well that she was having an affair with Andrei, but for some reason, my feelings for her seemed to be becoming increasingly difficult to control; I felt a strong urge...

No, something's not right, something's really not right...

Even a cold shower couldn't calm me down. There seemed to be something special about this woman that was drawing me in...

Could this be some kind of drug?

Perhaps I need to re-examine this woman. Is this impulse really normal?

March 15, 3th year of the Seiwa era

The number of patients has exceeded 35, of whom 15 have entered a critical condition.

Strangely enough, White's symptoms started to lessen today. He began to act normally and even joked with Louise, who was taking care of him. In any case, this was the only good news I had heard these days.

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The bad news is, I've been infected.

Last night, I also heard that sound. It was an extremely warm call, as if it were greeting you from afar. To be honest, even knowing there was something wrong with it, I found it hard to feel any ill will towards it. I know it's dangerous!

I must hold on, at least for this stage, I still need to get them back home!

March 16, 3th year of the Seiwa era

The calls in my ears became clearer. I prepared a sedative; I will use it if necessary.

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While writing in my diary today, I came across the entry from the 10th. I had completely forgotten about this incident. At that moment, I wondered if my emotions were abnormal...

Could it be that my mental state is starting to deteriorate?

March 18, 3th year of the Seiwa era

White seems to have really returned to normal. Not only him, but Yamajiro has also started to return to normal today. Their symptoms seem to have appeared inexplicably and then disappeared just as inexplicably...

I think it's too early to draw conclusions; we need to observe further.

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I really forgot about my suspicions about Vivian again. Damn it, there seems to be some strange force making me subconsciously ignore my suspicions about her!

Something very wrong is happening, and I think I need to make some preparations…

March 20, 3th year of the Seiwa era

Things are getting worse; I completely forgot to write in my diary yesterday! The alarm clock isn't working; I immediately ignore it as soon as I put it down…

Just now, I used an alarm clock to time an injection of a sedative, and it proved effective. I don't know how much time this will buy me.

My mental state is also deteriorating. I heard my father talking to me again, and I really missed it... I know this seems abnormal, but why don't I resist it?

I don't have much time left. Next, I'll use my captain's privileges to access the surveillance footage, hoping to find something.

March 21, 3th year of the Seiwa era

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The sedative is effective, but its effectiveness diminishes with repeated use; it only lasts for about 5 minutes now. Furthermore, this medication places a significant burden on the body, so I need to find a new solution.

I reviewed some of the surveillance footage; that's all I had time to do... but I've already discovered that Vivian seems to be having affairs with multiple crew members...

I don't know how to describe it, but it seems that she has a special attraction for men, which is very abnormal!

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My father told me not to worry, not to resist, and to just let things take their course... Maybe that's a good idea, no... I feel like my condition is getting worse and worse.

March 22, 3th year of the Seiwa era

I had to reuse crew members who had recovered from their symptoms, otherwise we would not be able to operate the test ship properly.

The effects of the sedative are still waning...

I could sense something else behind my father… He was growing bigger, and it was becoming impossible to hide. I asked my father, and he said, “That’s me… We are one.”

Something's not right... I feel like something's not right!

March 23, 3th year of the Seiwa era

No Vivian!!! No Vivian!!!

Chapter 557 I am a soldier, I must fulfill my responsibilities!

"The excruciating pain combined with sedatives allowed me to see some things clearly..."

There is no Vivian at all!!!

I can't believe that a non-existent person has been implanted in my mind!

But it seems to have seen me...

It was something beyond our comprehension! I have no idea what we were encountering!

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This universe is far more complex than it appears to be!

The solar system is like a warm swaddling cloth; are we humans truly ready to step out of it?!